The Way He Sees Me

Romans 9:20 (NLT) 20 . . . Who are you, a mere human being, to argue with God? Should the thing that was created say to the one who created it, "Why have you made me like this?"

I have wasted so much of my life not feeling “good enough” (whatever that even means). I have skipped meals, parties, and big life events because I’ve felt too fat. I’ve avoided speaking up and sharing my perspective at important times because I didn’t feel smart or my ideas didn’t feel significant. I compared myself to everyone around me and broke my own heart with self-rejection. And in all of those moments, not only did I hate myself but I started to resent the one that made me because I felt like I was being set up to fail against my will.

The more I have begun to value myself as an intentional creation, the more I have allowed myself to live. God has set me free from the scrutiny and the comparison games and has taught me how to see myself the way He sees me. I am not perfect, but I’ve noticed that the more time I spend celebrating the fact that all God ever wanted was to make good things and to share His love with us, the more I realize how rare and how human I am and how important it is to put my life to good use and step out of my own vain way.

Questions: Make two lists. On one list, write down the way you honestly see yourself – include the good, bad, and the ugly. On the next list, write down the way God sees you – from the time you were just a twinkle in his eye until today. In what ways is He rejoicing over you with singing, and how can you begin to merge your list into His list?

Prayer: God, I need you to help me see myself the way that you see me. Help me to understand my purpose and to live it proudly. Help me to empower others by uplifting them in my words and actions as well. In Jesus’ Name, amen.